Why "He's Changing Me"

Why "He's Changing Me" as a Title

Hi, my names Hannah as you can obviously tell. This blog has a funny start just in case you're wondering ;) I'm actually sitting at home sick with a bronchial infection which I have had for almost 4 days now. So like all sick people I decided to get on Pinterest to help me get to sleep (isn't that what all normal sick people do to sleep?). Anyways, so I found this pin that lead to a blog called "Every Bitter Thing is Sweet" and I have to say it got me to thinking.
   You see if I'm honest with myself, I have been struggling lately. I have distanced myself from God completely while putting on this awful act to show that I haven't. I'm not proud to say it, but I know every little thing to say to make everyone think that im still the perfect little good girl that everyone believes me to be. I know what to say when I'm asked if I'm a Christian, what to say when I'm asked what I want to do to serve God, how He has cahnged my life, all of it. And although the things I say aren't really that untrue, in the back of my head I know that I am being a hypocrite. I don't want to be one, I just know that I am.
  I read that blog and decided its time to get my life back on track with God. You see I want a relationship with God, I am saved, it's just that I continue to stray away from Him. I got frustrated with God because I was surrounded by people who are so on fire for Him, and you see I wanted that but had never felt it. I wanted to hear God speak to me, and to know what He wants for me in this life. When it didnt start happening right off, I got frustrated and confused and just gave up.
   So the purpose of this blog is to keep me accountable and just to keep a type of journal of my life and how God is changing me and my viewpoint. I know that He has big plans for me, and I want to keep track of it here. So hence the title "He's Changing Me". Feel free to comment on here at anytime with questions or just inspirations or whatever you feel led to do :) 11/16/12